Today I woke after a good long deep sleep, meditated, fell back asleep briefly, then slowly opened my eyes to start my day. Everything was so clear! I glanced outside to see all the details of the budding branches on this cloudy morning with no effort, just receiving the clarity. Then the view faded to my usual 20/40-ish blur, which made me sad. It felt like having a glimpse of Heaven, then having the door slammed in my face.
When I walk outside, I usually get a few clear flashes, or I have them while driving (less often than when I’m walking), or sometimes when I just look out the window wanting a break from the computer. However today’s period of increased clarity felt clearer, more vibrant (almost sparkling), and lasted longer than usual, by several seconds. So what did I do right, and how can I repeat this?
Since I’ve been improving my vision and reducing and eventually eliminating my strong glasses, over 15 years now, I’ve been trying to relax to help my progress. (Yes I know that’s an oxymoron, since trying is effort.) This may be why I can’t see the moons of Jupiter with my naked eyes yet. Trying seems to come naturally to me and relaxing does not. And with all I’ve learned about my patterns through regular meditation and EFT practices, maybe I am indeed more relaxed. Which might be why I got that huge gift of super-clarity this morning.
Going forward, I want to keep my focus on relaxing my body and mind, which sometimes seems totally unnatural for me. And I also want to keep gently noticing, not assuming everything will be blurry before I even look. I was just reminded a few hours ago that if I don’t look, I won’t see! And I think with the increased daylight I’ve been getting visually lazy. Since I can see better, I’m not looking for even more.
Fighting and resisting the blur doesn’t work for me. I don’t have the personality type to get angry and want to go to war. I worry and get anxious instead. I’ve been accepting the blur more and more, which goes along with my increased relaxation. This is progress for me. I love feeling calm! And I think I need to challenge the blur a bit now, not just assume it can’t change. My new motto is Explore The Blur! What treasure could be there I haven’t seen before?
I wore strong glasses, then contact lenses, from age 5 into my 40s. While making many mistakes, eventually l learned how to improve the way I use my eyes and to see in a more relaxed, healthy manner. It is my pleasure to coach others to do the same. Visit me at https://NancyLNeff.com.
Dr. Cyber, I can’t say what’s normal for you. If you’re getting clearer vision, even temporarily, I’d say that’s good! Sometimes one or both eyes tear a bit when I’m meditating, which I think is a release of tension I didn’t know I had. I also occasionally get tearing when I do eye chart practice, not often. Keep paying attention so you can become the expert about your own eyes.
Often when I get a flash of extra good vision like you got my right eye gets wet, and sometimes I even get a tear. This only happens to my right eye, which is the much better eye of the two and possibly the only one to get flashes of good vision. Is this normal? I think that relaxing my eye makes it get tears. I wonder if other people have this.
Dear Nancy, thank you for your articles. Every article describes some things which are the same for me (-4). I haven’t worn glasses for 1.5 years and every day now I experience flashes of clear vision, during which all my body relaxes. I experience it as you put this as the huge gift. At such moments, I am at the edge between believing that I can see well and feeling that it could not be true. A new habit of clear vision and the old one of not seeing well are competing at such moments, but the old one seems to win this competition. I am looking forward for a day when my new habit of seeing well get strong enough.
Alvina, good for you! If you are seeing clearer vision, believe in your experience, and accept the gift. 🙂 Yes, you are practicing a new habit of becoming a clear-sighted person, and like any new habit, it may take a little time until if feels like your New Normal. Just keep going forward, one step a a time, and enjoy whatever you see.
I have found that accepting that I need glasses to see sharply in my case was a tremendous act of self acceptance, acceptance that I currently have to live with a very prevalent distortion. I wear my glasses a lot more now, of course I am not so sexy this way but I am opening my heart to accept the fact that at the moment I am not flawless.
Beno, accepting that you need glasses to see some things right now (not all things, and not forever) can free up that “fighting Reality” energy for something more productive. Like vision improvement! I think if you’re your true self instead of pretending you’re OK when you’re not, your natural sexiness will show.
Beryl yes, me too. I’ve written before about “Accept it, don’t fight it”, and I’m just seeing that doesn’t have to be resigned defeated acceptance, it can be appreciative acceptance. Which of course then feels like self-acceptance. Every little thing really is all right.
Thank you Nancy. As I read your post the phrase… ‘whatever we resist, persists’ springs to mind. I am putting this practice of acceptance of ‘what is’ into many areas of my life – though had not thought about applying it to my eyes it.