A coach I’ve worked with for over a year offered me a free session to explore possible past-life contributions to my vision challenges in this life. She’s done this work for 15 years with clients in her office, but never at a distance. As her first Skype client, I would be the guinea pig to see if her techniques would still be effective remotely. I was curious, and also apprehensive — what if I blinded someone centuries ago and was still being punished for it? Or what if a cannonball exploded in my face during the Revolutionary War — did I really want to relive that? I trust her, and decided to go ahead.
She took some time to relax me and put me into a hypnotic trance, my first time with that experience. When I was guided to notice my surroundings, I seemed to be in medieval times, the people simple and primitive and superstitious. I was a healer woman from somewhere else, with skills and education no one had in the village, living alone on the edge of town in a little hut. The villagers sometimes came to me for help with an injury or illness when they were desperate, but didn’t really like me or trust me.
A woman who had something wrong with her eye visited me asking for help. She was an angry demanding person, and while I didn’t feel comfortable with her I still wanted to do what I could. The eye was swollen and infected, and I knew she needed to clean it (hygiene was horrible in the village), bathe it regularly in cool clean water to calm the inflammation, and get sunlight on it. I also knew she wouldn’t believe this was enough, and I’d need to invent a ruse of a “healing potion” to convince her.
I was nervous and uncomfortable about the lie as I told her a big dark green leaf was the answer. When she put it over her eye, it got worse and she was furious, blaming me. This might have been from her being dirty, and also the jumbled energy from her negativity and my own deception, but the damage was done.
For much of my life I’ve had dreams of an angry mob chasing me with sticks, running me out of town, and that’s what happened. The villagers came for me as if I was the Devil, took turns gouging out my eyes deeper and deeper, and finally killed me. During the session I was sobbing. I just wanted to help the woman, and the hurt of being so misunderstood was almost as bad as the physical pain.
Floating between lives now, my coach led me to glean the learning from this, and to let the fear and the pain go. Whether this is exactly true or not, it felt true. No wonder I’ve been so afraid of people, especially crowds! No wonder I was so terrified when I took my glasses off for long periods of time as I improved my vision — my eyes weren’t protected!
More insights are drifting in as I review this experience. When I was a child we prepared baked apples by coring them with an implement having a little scoop on the end, and it always made me nervous. I thought, “You could scoop out someone’s eye with that!”. Right after the session my vision seemed a lot clearer, and now a day later it’s better than usual, though not perfect by any means.
Whether you believe in past lives or not, this reinforces my feeling that vision is as much about emotion as it is about physical eye habits. If I think “everyone is out to get me!”, my body and eyes will be tense and wary. Not being relaxed, I won’t see as well. For years I’ve tried to convince myself that most people are friendly, and something deep in me just did not believe it. Maybe I’ve discovered why, and can now embrace the idea fully that the world is a welcoming place, a joy to see.
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yes, eyes do not improve fully if there is more than one story behind them.
I read sufi texts.. There the author thought it was wise to mystify healing so that some patient accept the remedy…
For me, I think right side was torn off in some forgotten story.. that is why I have left and right side problem, especially with the right side.
And I guess in one story. arrow went into my eyes.
In a third story, my brain was damaged..
I dag up 3 stories at least but I did not try to remember to much…
Also , some story when I was backstabbed.
Even shot in another one.
Wow, you have quite a history! I have several healer friends who believe they were persecuted in past lives for their gifts, hung or killed some other way. And I know some other folks who just had accidents, or were seriously wounded in a conflict. I do think the body can hold on to some of these injuries, so I guess our work now is to be forgiving of ourselves and others who were doing what they thought was right in their view, heal as best we can, and then help others too. I hope you are finding some helpful healers for yourself. I wish you all the best moving forward.
A comment from a friend who could not post here, for some reason:
Hello Nancy, I have read your blog about past life, and I tried to leave a comment, but somehow could not (it said “nonce invalid). So, I am sending it to you via messenger.
It is a very interesting story. I have done past life regression sessions a couple of times and somehow “knew” who the people in those visions were (in this life time) if I had a chance to look into their eyes. I can’t say these sessions are absolutely true or not, but I certainly feel they were real to me. And that itself means a lot. My Japanese teachers who conduct past life regression sessions said that you CAN change the past, by simply going back again to the time you made up the critical decision, and change your decision and action there and then. So in your case, it will be that you decide NOT to give the lady that leaf. Then all will change, and according to my teachers, your feeling TODAY would dramatically change, e.g. about crowd, apple core etc. etc.. I myself haven’t experienced it, but it is a fascinating stuff. Thank you for sharing your experience Nancy. Lots to think about!
Until now I only looked at my childhood for the source of problems, but the progress I make is so slow, perhaps I should dive into something deeper.
Quite a heavy story! Thanks for sharing. In general I’m not comfortable around people either and I always seem to be tense. Maybe I should investigate my past lives too…
Marloes, hi. I don’t think this is a cure-all, but is worth looking into if you’re interested. I also think childhood, when sometimes scary things happen that we forget because they’re too painful, may be even more valuable of a place to look for what’s restricting our eyesight or emotions as adults.
Geez, that made me tear up. I feel like that has some kind of meaning for me too. I’ve never done a past life regression, but maybe I should.
I was surprised at how “in it” I was, and the obvious relevance to my eyesight now. I know several healer folks who are sure they were persecuted or tortured in a past life, and have trouble fully owning their skills in this life. I do believe this kind of trauma can stay in the body. Cue the Twilight Zone music!
Excellent, thank you Nancy! I´ve come across more of these medieval wise women talks, lately. Actually, coming to the conclusion that those women – and men – whom we today consider witches or sorcerers where mostly just competent healers and earth keepers, way ahead of their time.
Maybe … we met then – in a good way, obviously!
Wiebke, so nice to hear from you! Maybe we were secret friends back then from different villages, meeting occasionally to talk about our work with someone who understood. This thought makes me smile. Take care, my healer colleague.